Monday, July 15, 2013

Control

Some things are out of our control, and other things we think are in our control, but really aren't. Sorry for the vagueness of this post, but the 'problem' at hand, though it affects me, is really not 'my problem' to share. There is just something going on and I feel there is nothing I can do about it except pray and trust that it works out. When there is something that you really feel you need or want to happen, are you supposed to just pray about it once and assume it is taken care of? Or do you pray and pray and pray about it, thinking that more prayer is better? God only needs to hear it once, I guess, but maybe for ourselves we need to keep praying to get peace of mind. I hate to be a nag. :/
I do believe that God has a plan for us, and that he has certain things happen for reasons. I also believe there is a lot that God is indifferent about, and that there are things that could go a variety of ways. If those small things don't factor into a master plan, then isn't it OK for us to pray for them to work out the way we want them? I would never pray for something to work out against God's will, but if there is a way for things to be the way I feel I want or need them to be, it's not wrong to ask, right?
Ugh, I feel very conflicted and slightly overwhelmed.

Unrelated side note: last night I slept horribly because of some very vivid nightmares. I often have vivid dreams and nightmares, but it was a little worse than usual. I blame the combination of pregnancy, Chinese food, and cake.  I was quite glad to wake up and find that my house was NOT a home to large black widow spiders and ticks, and that I had NOT strangled a penguin to death. :/ Oy.

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